How sore is sore enough ?

[Meltdownsky]

...Okay, time for a sad confession ...relapsed. 120+ days clean pissed away since returning to Birmingham...every time I swear it'll be my last, but it never happens...tired, burned out, depressed...would seek profssional help but don't need someone with a diploma laying a guilt trip on me. Truth be told I'm guilt trippin' myself plenty...Gonna' try again tomorrow, MY MESSAGE TO EVERYONE...PLEASE STAY FROM DRUGS...an easy door to walk in but Hell to find you way out !

[Lex]

I'm sorry to hear of your troubles and wish you the best but I've never felt drugs are an "easy door to walk into"

All the best and hope you pull through.

[Meltdownsky]

^ you sir are correct...the choice is always mine and with a clearer head today, my post reeks of selfpity...spent some time reading up (online) about the cause/effects of addiction and realize that I'm in a bit of a vicious circle of trying to be happy in a situation that offers no real happiness.

[snoogy17]

pain is good man.. the pain comes from your muscles tissues actually ripping.. and when they swell up and heal, your muscle tissue becomes bigger and stronger.. learn to love the pain.. i feel it every mornign when i wake up and i love it.. lets me know i'm on the right track lol

[FE3-323]

werd to that!

[Jho]

Mmmmm......pain.

I can't even touch my back when I try to wash it in the shower, lol.

[FE3-323]

thats the best part! a mix of stretching & lifting turns you into yoga man HAHAH

[Jho]

LOL........yeah, I very inflexable.

[FE3-323]

YOGA POWA!!! hahah

[riverrunnernky]

Yeah, ok, maybe,.....

LOL........yeah, I very inflexable.

but I damned sure would not like trying to do a takedown on you, like taking down a stack if cinder blocks. Not easy!! I saw the myspace no shirt photo. Stud muffin man!

David

[Jho]

Whoa now David!

Keep that on the dl.

[riverrunnernky]

What is DL Jo?

[Jho]

Usually it means download, but in this case I meant it to mean down low.

[riverrunnernky]

Aw Man!

Usually it means download, but in this case I meant it to mean down low.

You should have MD after your name!

Jho MD (Muff Diver)

[Meltdownsky]

Okay...20+ days without blow thanks to help/support from a site called cocainehelp.org and have finally gotten enough of a grip on my life to seriously start looking for a new job (drug tested myself with kit from drugstore a week ago...negative). Weight dropped to 185 lbs. and then shot up to 205 lbs. once I started eat properly again, currently trying ease back down to 190 lbs. by laying off junk food (lots of fruit and vegetables these days) and playing the piss outta' my drum kit. Still too hot here work on the 94LX...temps. outside 102 to 105+ for more than two weeks.